Friday, December 16, 2005:
hmmmm. the crematorium reminded me of my great grand mother when she died. cant remember what really happened.. just remembered that everyone was crying alot and i cried a few times too.. cos she used to talk to me but as i got older i couldnt be bothered to talk to her, cos i got impatient with her. and i felt kinda guilty. but i guess i wasnt really close to her. i still rmb when she was cremated, my grandmother wailed. and she was beating the floor then. and she was a non-believer then. but now she's a christian too. and i'm glad for it. cos she has hope beyond the grave now. and i'm really happy for her. my grandfather still isnt though. thats something to be worked on..
sat's coming. carolling. i'm kinda glad i went for it.. i cant wait to share with the kids and old folks abt christmas. actually i'm more excited abt the kids. i hope they listen. and i'm praying really hard that everything will go smoothly in the days to come.. there's no practice tmr.. and i'm feeling quite worried.. there are some unperfected songs.. but like my band mate used to say, you know, when ever we perform for god, he'll make everything sound perfect. and i'm gonna keep trusting that he will make things perfect for us. hooray. saturday's gonna be so exciting. x)
alot of things to be mulled over. and i need alot of time to sort things out. and i'm glad that i'm going bangkok on sunday. cos then i'll have time to take my mind of some matters and really get down to doing my christmas shopping. there's so much to get.. i dont know if i have the money. hee. ah well. i think i shall sleep soon. :) its almost 1:30 alr.
hmm. i wonder which jc i'll get posted to. i'll find out tmr. x)
a shout of praise.
1:11 AM
